Growth

my early life years were vancouver
fast and grandiose and wild
predictably capricious

I married young

younger than most these days

twenty two.

the spring of my life

not yet summer and it was cold
february

we were fast and grandiose and wild

and loving embraces and sweet gestures

and ungainful employment soon turned to

unemployment.

debt and relocation

the early summer of my life became change

calgary and wide open spaces and slow

I became a new me

anxious and timid and quiet and 
mother

twenty three.

I brought life into the world at twenty three

he was late

he is the bright and vibrant and whimsical in me

twenty five.

I brought another life into the world

he was early

he is the playful and timid and the quiet in me

twenty six.

countryside and fresh air and peace and studies

fills my days

it is not quiet

more a summer breeze

unpredictable though welcome

and so life does amble on

and I welcome it

as furtive glances and embered embraces turn

to gentle understanding and cohabitation and docile embraces

and coffee and moonlit breastfeeding and early mornings

and stolen kisses in the few quiet moments

but it is welcome

and understood

not all life can be

fast and grandiose and wild

growth cannot subsist there.